He could never love me the way I needed

As I give him the coldest of shoulders on the warmest of nights

I struggle to make up my mind

If I leave do I lose my person or do I find myself?

He kisses my lips

And I pull away

He’s unaware of my thoughts

But so aware of my distance

I don’t have a fear of rejection

I only fear how it feels when i’m the one to dish it out.

I fear guilt.