They say I should leave my house  If I do the blazing fear will douse  Leaving me soaking wet, And filled with bitter regret  It’ll get easier they say  The sludgy fear will go away  The bugs crawling on my stretched out skin  Turning around to the exit I spin Life’s like a cheap brassiere Lacking any support but I’m still here  Stuck in a world of night  In a life I can’t rewrite  They say I hold the pen of fate In my hands is an empty slate   The life I want to unlock  Lies within this piece of chalk  But what if I’m dreaming too big  Downing delightful destinies with a swig  What if everything collapses  While time around me elapses  And I stay melded to suck  While the world around me goes amuck  What if the only space that I can leave a trace  Simply lies within this house that hides my terrified face  What if I venture outside to find I don’t belong  Because everyone around me knows lyrics to life’s song  What if my differences never make me shine  They’re all just attributes to my mental decline  What if I’m somewhere at the wrong time  And I become a statistic of yet another crime  Just try, they remark  And I’ll respond with needless snark   Afraid, unsure, and filled with doubt  But even I know I must venture out