They say I should leave my house 

If I do the blazing fear will douse 

Leaving me soaking wet,

And filled with bitter regret 

It’ll get easier they say 

The sludgy fear will go away 

The bugs crawling on my stretched out skin 

Turning around to the exit I spin

Life’s like a cheap brassiere

Lacking any support but I’m still here 

Stuck in a world of night 

In a life I can’t rewrite 

They say I hold the pen of fate

In my hands is an empty slate  

The life I want to unlock 

Lies within this piece of chalk 

But what if I’m dreaming too big 

Downing delightful destinies with a swig 

What if everything collapses 

While time around me elapses 

And I stay melded to suck 

While the world around me goes amuck 

What if the only space that I can leave a trace 

Simply lies within this house that hides my terrified face 

What if I venture outside to find I don’t belong 

Because everyone around me knows lyrics to life’s song 

What if my differences never make me shine 

They’re all just attributes to my mental decline 

What if I’m somewhere at the wrong time 

And I become a statistic of yet another crime 

Just try, they remark 

And I’ll respond with needless snark  

Afraid, unsure, and filled with doubt 

But even I know I must venture out