I really am sorry and I want you to be happy and I swear I’ll be better next time and I’m trying to smile for you and I’ll stop crying, I promise, it’s just that I am so, so tired all the time and it hurts to think and my head won’t stop spinning and I can’t concentrate and and it’s way too loud in here, but I know that’s not your fault and I would never blame you for anything and I’m really sorry for complaining, I’ll stop talking now, I know it only makes you upset, I’m sorry.