This is me

A collusion of broken pieces

Seemingly fit together but between the cracks are empty spaces

I seek answers in disillusioned places

I learned the truth but felt no connection

It’s all irrelevant to my mind and I treat it like an infection

In my own brain the things I see aren’t the same

I tell myself it’s everyone else but who am I to put blame?

I feel ashamed

To be a part of this web of lies and yet I don’t feel any surprise

I created this by my own design

And now I choose a different life

But it’s hard to walk a different line

When all you know has been embedded in your mind

It’s twisting me up inside

I’ll never admit that I lost

I’ll never admit defeat

When you see me you’ll never know the pain that I keep

I wear a smile like a mask but it’s the only thing reminding me of what I strive to achieve:

A better version of me