When I look in the mirror, I used to see a young innocent girl. Lately, I’ve seen the opposite. I’ve been seeing a devil. It may be the devil inside me. I thought I left my past behind me.

3 years ago, when I was just 14, I made the worst mistake of my life. I killed my step brother. In my defense, he assaulted me. He used to make me sleep with him, he’d make sure no one was home and abuse me until I gave up and let it happen. It happened every day for 3 weeks. I felt hopeless, lonely, violated, and broken.

I decided I had enough. The last time he tried, I had a gun ready to go under my pillow. He came in my room and told me to lay down and shut up. I did as he asked but the second he got on top of me, I pulled the trigger. His lifeless body lay on top of me.

Every time I look in the mirror. I see the devil in me. I see the girl who was abused and violated and did something about it. It still haunts me. The way I dragged his body out to the back and buried his body. It haunts me. I, have a devil inside me.