sweaty hands

blue lights

i can hear the noise from behind my shield

this is what i need

this is what i want

my voice has always been quiet

but my brain is louder than thunder

being heard by my pain

the very thought makes me shake

now my lips are quivering

my lips are ready to move

my heart is full of tears and my body is full of rage

the moment i am up there

speaking my truth

it will close on me

i’ll feel pressure

but i will be seen by a room full of hearts

and i think thats what keeps me from staying put