He may not live in my mind rent free anymore, but he does stop by. I keep my doors locked at all times, but he knows of the broken window in the attic which will not close.

I know he sneaks in from time to time. I’ve seen traces of him having infiltrated my spaces. In the hard to access areas, hidden in the past.

Lurking around corners and hiding in the shadows, i know he is there, waiting for the perfect moment to remind me, who’s in control.

With him he will bring a whrilwind of emotions. Anger, sadness, guilt, despair, loneliness, worthlessness, embarassment, and fear.

Knowing he can break me with just one thought, brings a whole different set of emotions. Panic, chaos, hypervigilance, anxiety, and again fear.

The fear i felt all those years ago, still alive in my mind. Still able to transport me back through time and space.

But when the darks clouds clear, the future will shine bright. Bright enough to illuminate the dark corners. No shadows in sight.

Till next time…