**authors note: currently writing this at like 12:00am so don’t be surprised if literally none of this makes sense**🙃💜****

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I can’t feel my feet

Or my hands

Or my face

But most concerning of all

Is the fact that my heart

Is colder than an Oklahoma fall

I think I’ve forgotten

What having feelings feels like

It’s been so long

And I’ve been so tired

I’ve lost everything

That I have once loved and admired

Once you have been as cold as me

For as long as I have

You too will understand

That after so long

Of feeling nothing at all

You get pretty good

At faking being warm

You get good

At pretending

That you are not alone

And after freezing for so long

Your ice cold water

Feels much warmer

Than nothing at all