What would I do

If I woke up one day to you gone?

Go mad?

Cry?

Pull my hair out one by one

And lie?

Saying I’m fine…

But you are gone.

How can I be fine,

When I used to call you mine?

Our world was just us

And now it’s just me

And I miss you.

I can’t help that I do.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry.

You tell me to stop apologizing,

I can’t.

You’re not here

Like you used to be.

Here to warm my feet…

Here to play D&D…

Here to dye my hair

And it’s not fair.

It’s not fair

That I had to let you go.

I just hope that you know,

I will never not miss you.

Every second of every day,

You’re on my mind

And I just pray

That you are at least going to be okay.

Because I’m not,

At least - not right now.

My world is grey without your light.

You said you would be my light

But now I sleep through the day,

With nightmares through the night.

Night terrors that remind me

Just how much you loved me.

Night terrors that remind me

We cannot be.

My world is grey without you, yes.

My thoughts are obviously also a mess.

My stomach is in my throat

And the thoughts swirl with nowhere to go.

Nowhere to form

Except to say

I would miss you.