when i look in the mirror, im looking at a face. its not my face, its not a reflection you normally see when you look in a mirror. Its not a reflective shiny thing hanging on a wall, or the back of my door, its the people i see. i have many mirrors, some flattering, others not so much. They teach me so much about myself. When i look in these mirrors and see something i dont like, it has nothing to do with them and everything to do with me. I could avoid that mirror, Avoid an image of myself i can't stand to look at, or i can change the image. Instead i work on them, until i can face my live mirror and love them, i suddenly love me. When i look in the mirror, its outdated in some way...i feel like im looking at a version of myself from the past, when i look in that mirror i dont know that girl anymore, she doesnt exist. So i look everywhere, looking for a mirror that i recognize. I still havent found it. I can't change this image anymore, not like the rest. How could i change what isnt here anymore, so ill wait...look around sometimes...wait some more. I could understand why this image goes unfavored, This was a terrible one, selfish,naive,too young to know better, but ive grown so much since then. When will somebody see me now, not then. so i continue to wait...