If only I wasn’t like this.

I stare at myself in the mirror, dissociating from my body.

If only I didn’t overthink everything

If only I got shit done

If only I could actually focus

If only

If only

If only.

If only I wasn’t standing in front of my mirror, over-analyzing my thoughts, w/out any control.

If only this would all stop

Just. Stop.

What am I waiting for?

The silence that I know won’t come?

The love I know won’t be returned?

The fear I know won’t go away?

What the hell’s stopping me from living my life?

My disassociated self.

If only I weren’t like this.