Til we meet again.
โWhen the time comes, be ready.โ
๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ต ๐ด๐ข๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฐ๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ, ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด.
โ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด.โ โ๐๐ฐ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ, ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ด ๐ช๐ฏ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅโ๐ด ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ.โ
๐๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ตโ๐ด ๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐บ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถโ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ, ๐๐ข๐ค๐ฌ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ข๐บ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ฃ๐บ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฆ๐ต. ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฆ๐ต. ๐๐ต ๐ค๐ข๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฆ๐ต.
I finished writing and set my pencil down in my notebook before closing it. I got up and headed towards the window. Itโs only been a week but I feel as if Iโve been looking out at the same view for months now. I keep waiting for something to change, for good news to come. But it never does.
Jackson was the first boy I ever gave my heart to. He got into a pretty bad accident on his motorcycle. That day keeps flashing through my mind..
โ๐ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ฐ, ๐๐ข๐ค๐ฌ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ. ๐๐ฉ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ญ๐ช๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ?โ
โ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ช๐ตโ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ.โ
โ๐๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ญ๐บ ๐ช๐ตโ๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ! ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถโ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฑ๐ช๐ต๐ข๐ญ. ๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ง ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฅ? ๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ง ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ?โ
That last part lingers in my mind every time. Then it was just a question of โwhat ifโ. Now itโs a matter of โwhenโ.
And when the time comes, whether I want to be or not, Iโll have to be ready.