First Love
Hands brushing hands
One ecosystem of bacterium fusing with the other
Temperatures morphing and matching
Until two strangers are no longer unfamiliar
(It was just a hand touch, nothing more)
Eyes blazing, buttes burning
Finding one another in a busy room
Soundless words traverse and exchange
An entire conversation with closed lips
(You over romanticize everything, it’s not that deep)
It was fleeting, it was fast
A rush of emotion and passion
An ever flowing river pouring with too much
And we gave
And gave
And gave
Ourselves to each other
Until we had nothing left to give
(We fell out of love, don’t try to overcomplicate things)
We chased the pieces
The strays and scraps of what we once had
And tried to glue it into memories
To replay end repeat
(You tried too hard to fix things. It just wasn’t meant to be)
Everything we had imprinted on our palms
And in our chests
And in our heads
A burn left over from the fire we had
And yet
I do not want it to heal over just yet
Even if it is just nostalgia
I need a piece of what we experienced
To know it was real
(It was all a waste of time. It got too messy and in the end, there were too many things to regret)
I’m glad we once loved
Even if what we had lived a half life
At least we experience what seems so rare
To so many
(Why would you be glad if it ended so soon?)
(It would’ve been better if we had spared the hurt of loss and never had loved at all)