Maybe he seems to have brown hair..

Or maybe black?

I could only wonder.

Maybe he has.. blue eyes? No. Brown. But no! What if they were green? Or grey?

I wouldnt mind..

I just want that hand to reach for me.

Those eyes to search for me and only me in a crowd.

If he really wants me, come and get me.

I just hope you last.

Maybe nobody told him how to be a real man.

Maybe someone did.

Maybe he only soughts for me when he needs help.

What if he truly doesn’t want me?

That isnt true, is it?

He needs to love me.

He needs to.

He has to.

Please.

I HATE YOU SO MUCH PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE JUST—

Dear future husband.

I dont know you yet.

I just want a hand, if that’s okay.

A listening ear if you will.

Maybe you wont understand all the things I am.

I’m just crazy in too many ways.

But please love me on days I feel like I cant love anyone.

Please cradle me when I need it.

Just dont forget about me.

Could I be enough for you?

Maybe you’d think i’m too dumb.

I come complete with a pack of being bad at many things.

I promise i’m trying to improve.

I really, really do.

I’m so scared that I’ll screw my life up.

But please be there to screw it back in.

Oh, the darkness of this atmosphere..

Thanks.

• Sincerely, Her.