“shut up” others say when im too loud.

I always fall silent after hearing it.

When I’m quiet for too long, my legs start to shake and my throat thightens.

Theres always a tight feeling in my chest, a feeling to talk.

It makes me uncomfortable when its too quiet,

As if someone must say something so im comfortable once again.

As soon as someone tells me, “your too loud”

i feel weird.

As if I’m wrong for wanting to be heard, when i hear it i remember being in arguments and being mocked for my voice being too loud.