Why do I have to sit here? I want to play with the other kids, The teacher took my recess away because I was a distraction. But, I don't understand My body is changing  Why do I have hair _there?_ It’s a part of growing up they say  But, I don’t understand  This class is over my head The professor is going too fast I’m trying my best to follow along But, I don’t understand  They speak a language I don’t know Their stories are full of laughter  They try to include me  But, I don’t understand  I was once told that I was loved Now they tolerate me They pretend to care But, I don't understand My body is destroying itself Autoimmune diseases suck I try to do things I once could But, I don't understand My life has been one major change after another Nothing is ever the same But there has been one constant: I don't understand