You ask me why I am constantly running.

I am holding out on being someone worthy of happiness.

I realize it is at your expense.

Time only made my resentment grow fonder.

You won’t wait around forever.

But permanence is not a promise I can make.

My soul is bound to yours.

Loving you is like having a fifth limb.

Losing you and living without you was like learning how to walk again.

I know you like the back of my hand.

But doubt has cast a shadow shaped like evergreen—

You still pull my strings from your place in my past.

How can I move on

If you won’t let me?

I fell first.

You fell harder.

Now that you regret putting me back in the pond,

You know that I was the catch of a lifetime.

All you want for Christmas is a second chance.

Oh, but I’m afraid the ship has sailed.

And I couldn’t tell you where I will dock next.