“I don’t know why. I just couldn’t help myself.”

My jaw drops in disbelief. I’m standing here looking at the man I thought loved me. After finding out he’s been fucking my cousin he hits me with ‘I don’t know why. I just couldn’t help myself’.

“You couldn’t-“ I don’t even finish.

The more I stare at him the more I realize how much of an idiot I am. With his week chin and slightly dumpy posture I can see now that I’ve been punching down.

He is so beneath me that it’s ridiculous. I think the thing that upsets me most is that my mother was right.

About him and about Cassie, my faithless cousin. That is what stings the most because she’s been living with me for the past few months while she gets back on her feet. I told her she was welcome to anything in my apartment. I just didn’t think to exclude my boyfriends dick in that statement.

Lesson learned.