How I wished to be loved To be held and adored Long walks on the beach and late nights spent indoors But the hungry aren’t picky I betrayed myself I chose a love that was sickly Arsenic water for health I drank long and drank deep And I choked with a smile To undo myself would be well worth the while But neglect has a cost And one day I snapped No longer I’d run to a beckoning lap The arsenic water It burns on my skin It taught me the love that I’d ignored within My betrayal was beauty And through all the pain I learned I deserved to love myself again