Time altered into seconds

Vibes stripped into sorrow

Reality shifted into delusion

When I feel you, I become terrified.

When I think of you, I become anxious.

When I look at you, all I see is trauma.

You tasted like honey at first, but you became bitter.

You felt like heaven, but you became cold.

You smelt like flowers, but you turned into ashes.

My childhood was filled with excitement, but

My innocence became terrorized.

My heart was angelic, but

My soul became a prisoner.

My body was beautiful, but

You painted me with scars.

I feel like I’m drowning.

Drowning in weight filled with overwhelming anxiety.

I feel like I’m lost.

Lost in the woods with complete darkness.

I feel like I’m in chains.

Chains of which I can’t escape from.

© Paris Bond