There’s a song called Youngblood by 5 Seconds Of Summer. Every time I here this song I think about my ex boyfriend. I feel like I still miss him and it hurts. But I also know he was never good for me. We dated for two years and we broke up a couple months ago I think in like March. We started talking again around May I think we talk for about two weeks than I never heard from him. I found out that he block me and I will never find out the reason. The other day at Walmart I saw him it kinda felt like we made eye contact but I have no idea if he saw me. When I saw him he was with I’m assuming his girlfriend and her kid. The girl he was with is the girl I think he cheated on me with. But when we started talking he said he didn’t but that girl ended up moving in with him after me and him broke up. So I think I’m right and he did cheat because she was trying to get with him when we were together. Like I said we dated for two years it wasn’t a bad relationship but it wasn’t good ethier we both had things we need to work on. But we dated for two years I miss him how could I not because we had bad times but we also had good times. I always thought we were made for each other because we have broken up 7 times and we always got back together except for this last time. So how this song reminds me of him is the lyrics in it like the first part is “Remember the words you told me, love me 'til the day I die

Surrender my everything 'cause you made me believe you're mine

Yeah, you used to call me baby, now you calling me by name” We both told each other that we love each other until we died but look at us now we’re not together so guess that was a lie. He even bought me a promise ring during Christmas on are two year anniversary so maybe that’s why I have trust issues because everyone like him that I know just break promises. I have really bad trust issues and I want a relationship like these are holidays people get all cute and crap and I’m just alone. But I also like being alone because I don’t have to deal with the stress and worrying about if that person is staying loyal. Finding someone who is loyal is rare so if you find that person keep that person forever. I still miss my ex and I know I’m going to for awhile until I find someone who will give me the same love back that I give them.