You got me at age four. I was confused and called you mommy, as you’d correct me, “Mamaw.” I slowly started to call you Memaw mommy.

Although it’s taken time to realize you only wanted more for me, you will forever be my mother and nothing less.

Life without you, means I cannot call out of the blue, to ask how you are doing.

Life without you, means I cannot call out of the blue to say I miss you.

Life without you, means I cannot call to ask how to cook meals like you.

Life without you, means I cannot drive to see you and help around the house.

Life without you, means no more thanksgivings with our family.

Life without you, will be a depression episode I will have to drag myself out of because I know you wouldn’t want me to let you have negative power over me.

Life without you will be grieving over my father, but more intense, as I’ve had you far longer than I had him.

Life without you will be august 18,2018 all over again. I will have to drag myself out of the murkiest water, after sinking into a river of despair.

Life without you, will be unfair.

Life without you, is something I hope arrives later than early, for I love you forever and always, my Memaw mommy.