today it is

my birthday

and all my friends

and family

have come round

there is cake

there is sweetness

the feeling of being

surrounded

by love

as if to say

i am grateful

for the universe

the earth

and my own existence

as a whole

there have been birthdays

where i struggle

to be happy

where i cannot

find my reason for living

anymore

that i am merely

a shape

evolving

devolving

like amoebas

in water

my past

would be a better future

for the young kids

growing older

where we could be free

free from so much shit

that brings them down

today

for we went at it

with no judgement

no knowing

of what would come next

whether that was

love

playing

listening

acting

breathing

or

simply existing

we love our children

and ourselves

but let's love the present

and the future as well