My heart beats heavily,

Rapidly,

Within the cage of my chest.

Rasping,

My breath holds me.

I feel as though I could combust,

Into a million little stars.

I am standing still on the ledge,

Of the universe,

I am begging and pleading,

I see everything ahead of me,

So clearly now.

The outlines are crisp,

Filling in the blank spots that once were.

My body is tense-- it aches for the release,

Into the unknown.

I see the spaces that I wish to occupy,

I see the outcomes I want to make happen.

Like a working dog being held back from the lure.

Eyes wide, mouth-frothing, muscles taught.

I am so close, I can feel this future tense,

I can tangibly sense the waves of change shifting through me.

And yet...

I am not... not yet.