Can you hear me?

I speak and you nod

And I laugh

And we keep on

But can you hear me?

You listen as I let forth

All my thoughts and interests

Into a loud buzzing goop

That you can barely understand

Can you hear what I really mean?

My mind won't let me

Interpret the thoughts

That race and rage and

Buzz and scream for attention

Can you understand what even I may not?

Waves of thought crash

Against the rocky shore

Of my tired, fizzing mind

Coming out all wrong

Can you hear how exhausted I am?

When the words come out

They stumble and crash

And I laugh as strange

Peculiar things tumble out

Can you hear the frustration in my laughter?

I talk and talk and yet

You are losing interest

I know I should stop

But I so want you to love it too

Can you hear my desire to share my passion?

Nothing comes out

Everything comes out

Yet you don't understand

And I can't stop

....you can't hear me, can you?

You can't hear the frustration or the desire or the constant buzz of thoughts

You can't hear the way my mind races and stumbles on even after my mouth closes.

You can't hear me pleading you to look past my strangeness, past my overenthusiasm, past the loudness of my voice.

Hear my loneliness and my whispered wish of please, *please* like me, please stay by my side.

But you can't....