I never knew it could be this hard, I had said goodbye what felt like a thousands times to people, places, not once did it hurt as much as this.

There were so many things I could say. There are so many different ways to say goodbye and yet the only words that I could form in this moment was-

“Okay.”

No ‘see you soon’.

No ‘I love you’.

No ‘please don’t go’.

Just, okay.

And it’s better than the deafening silence that Leon responds with. The glint in his blue eyes tells enough. This isn’t anywhere near as painful for him as it is me.

I was never good at confrontation, Leon had known this better than anyone.

It made sense that he wouldn’t say these words to be face because I likely would have broken his.

His use of the words pathetic and weak are especially prominent, he seemed to know the way to dig deep into my heart and tear it right out. I had not seeked his validation, but when it seemed like I had earned it felt pride. Now it was all crushed.

I crumple the letter and toss it into the fire, if he truly felt this way then I would prove him wrong.