Survive

I create instead of destroying

But I’m getting destroyed instead

Struggling

Why I have nothing to struggle about

I just want to give my love

But No one is taking

Just disowning me; leaving me for no one

Why can’t I just disappear

Everyone discusses about me in negative light

Even tho all I am is love

Just leave please

I don’t get it leave me alone

I’m just trying to survive...

Death

Alive

Which one is more important?

Which has more impact

Wavering in and out

You stare into space contemplating

Contemplating if you’re alive or just barely breathing

You’re skin is melting to the touch but no reaction comes up

Will you ever be the same?...

No matter how much I’m scared to get hurt

I will for you

I’ll do anything for you

You won’t ever hurt me

You’re soul is so beautiful to smile at

Im a unique person

But I found you…. an even more unique soul

I can get lost in you for hours

I want to become the best person for you anything I can

The one that catches your eye

The one you can find in a crowd

You are the only one who makes me ...

Why

Why do I feel so unloved?

You give me the world

You love me

So purely

Am I really the problem?

What’s wrong

I feel like drowning

And becoming one with the wind

Just become the whispers in the wind…....

If only I had more time.

If only our souls can tear eachother apart

Just rebuild them together...

Needle piercing my skin

Warm blood dripping down

Organs, pink and functioning

Living

Piercing resurfacing to the thinnest layer of skin

Getting infected

Rejected

Organs shutting down, broken

And brown

Organs failing

Rejecting life

Hair prosperous and healthy.

Skin shining in the sun

Hair falling out and brittle

Skin crusty, cracking

Falling off...

( listen to the song lose it - oh wonder while reading)

I sink into the cool pool

Deeper

And deeper

Melodies play in my head

I can breath but my heart still beats

My shadows and everything around

Dances with me

The bubbles filling my ears

“Don’t you stop the music

Get into it won’t you dance with me”

I breath in, water filing my lungs

“Move your feet and feel it, in the space betwee...

You don’t see me

You don’t see how you’re affecting me

You don’t get me

Or even understand who I am as a person

The true me

It’s all about how you’re affecting me

Me

Me

Me

It floods my mind how you are to ME

I don’t remember

that your person

outside of me outside of my life

In a way

we are diminishing each other

and our experiences of life

We were never taught how to love

truly ...

I feel like I had the world with her

For a short amount of time.

Maybe it wasn’t real.

To her

But to me I loved it

Destroying my thoughts, my being

Was it even that much for you?

Did you feel like I felt?

I destroyed my life.

I took down everything.

Cut off people.

Became isolated.

I loved it though,

I did it to myself

Know your life was never destroyed

You can always rebuild

Love...

I’m numb to anyone else

I love the subject of sin

I don’t need to come find you

I see you everywhere

You belong to me.

I’m where you belong.

I need you to give me your body

I feel chills when I’m with you.

You feel hot, your souls burning

Our souls are burning together

I don’t need to come find you

I’m where you belong.

I need to swallow all your pain

While I take you

With me ...