Survive I create instead of destroying But I’m getting destroyed instead

Struggling Why I have nothing to struggle about I just want to give my love

But No one is taking Just disowning me; leaving me for no one Why can’t I just disappear Everyone discusses about me in negative light Even tho all I am is love

Just leave please I don’t get it leave me alone I’m just trying to survive

Death Alive Which one is more important?

Which has more impact Wavering in and out

You stare into space contemplating Contemplating if you’re alive or just barely breathing You’re skin is melting to the touch but no reaction comes up

Will you ever be the same?

No matter how much I’m scared to get hurt I will for you I’ll do anything for you

You won’t ever hurt me You’re soul is so beautiful to smile at

Im a unique person But I found you…. an even more unique soul I can get lost in you for hours

I want to become the best person for you anything I can The one that catches your eye The one you can find in a crowd

You are the only one who makes me feel alive Known Understood fully without any judgement Loved. But just know …….I love you more

Why Why do I feel so unloved? You give me the world You love me So purely

Am I really the problem? What’s wrong

I feel like drowning And becoming one with the wind

Just become the whispers in the wind….

If only I had more time. If only our souls can tear eachother apart Just rebuild them together

Needle piercing my skin Warm blood dripping down

Organs, pink and functioning Living

Piercing resurfacing to the thinnest layer of skin Getting infected Rejected

Organs shutting down, broken And brown Organs failing Rejecting life

Hair prosperous and healthy. Skin shining in the sun

Hair falling out and brittle Skin crusty, cracking Falling off

( listen to the song lose it - oh wonder while reading)

I sink into the cool pool Deeper And deeper

Melodies play in my head I can breath but my heart still beats

My shadows and everything around Dances with me The bubbles filling my ears

“Don’t you stop the music Get into it won’t you dance with me”

I breath in, water filing my lungs “Move your feet and feel it, in the space between”

Feeling more alive then anything I sink Down below My heart will always beat with the melody

“You gotta lose it”

You don’t see me You don’t see how you’re affecting me

You don’t get me Or even understand who I am as a person The true me

It’s all about how you’re affecting me Me Me Me

It floods my mind how you are to ME I don’t remember that your person outside of me outside of my life In a way we are diminishing each other and our experiences of life

We were never taught how to love truly love

I feel like I had the world with her For a short amount of time. Maybe it wasn’t real. To her But to me I loved it

Destroying my thoughts, my being Was it even that much for you? Did you feel like I felt?

I destroyed my life. I took down everything. Cut off people. Became isolated. I loved it though, I did it to myself

Know your life was never destroyed You can always rebuild Love again Get a new job Love yourself again Try Just keep trying and you won’t fail.

Regardless if I still have a chance with her. Or don’t. I Will Be Okay

I’m numb to anyone else I love the subject of sin

I don’t need to come find you I see you everywhere You belong to me.

I’m where you belong. I need you to give me your body I feel chills when I’m with you.

You feel hot, your souls burning Our souls are burning together

I don’t need to come find you I’m where you belong.

I need to swallow all your pain While I take you With me All of you.