I feel gloriously small like the way a child feels in their fathers arms Or how a firefly fits in the palm of my hand A gentle touch Or locking eyes with a stranger A kind of small that makes you run after the sun And even as a storm rolls in I am free And my feet sink in the grass And I am praying to my God As He holds me fast and lights my path I am not afraid Oh storm! Come get me now! I won’t stumble or get cold My Father holds me fast

Yellow sunflowers lay on my doorstep They’ve been sitting there all day I can’t seem to touch them What if they fade away?

I want everything frozen Give me colors that can stay, Things that can’t be broken Let me find a way!

Where songs can never end And stories don’t need books One breath can last forever And static are our looks

This seems to be a fantasy A world so out of reach For how can one stop darkness From impeding on the weak?

Yet, there is another plan The human eye can’t see Where this is not our home But one that is unseen

It lies under our pridefulness And fights against our wrongs Bringing the mighty low, It gives them a new song

Oh God, many are your wonders! Your colors, Lord will stay For you formed the breeze and waters And shape us as like clay

This world is not our home, you see And flowers, they will fade But great the Fathers love for us No longer are we afraid!

But out from hiding comes a whisper Light grabs me from behind My feet were deep in mud and mire And now they are refined

No shadow wins No darkness holds The Father of the sun

The weight I carried such a distance Has flown away so fast I can not fathom how it happened I am no longer cast

So find your way, my doom and gloom! I now can see a smile How undeserving one can be Given grace as like a child

My feet have stumbled far Past fields of snow and dew But Your presence is still with me Even if my thoughts of you are few

I know that I am turned My back faces the sun The wind is strong against me The churning has begun

My God, oh I have sinned! And followed darkness fast My feet, they lead me somewhere But how much I long for the past

In my days where I remembered, The good things God has done When I used to cry to God Before the rising of the sun

But my sin sticks to me like honey Though not sweet at all My pride like a needy dog That follows till I fall

So flowers they fall And money, it stings But smiles and hugs Last past the late spring

Gods patience is soaring His words always strong And I beg you so gently To let “you” belong

Belong not to the waters And not to the sky But rather my daughter To the truth, not the lies

I’m here and I’m waiting With open arms I embrace I give you my child A love greater than chase

The chasing of wind And the schorching of fire It exhausts and it hurts you It’s not my design

You are best when you worship For that’s why you are here To serve and to care For others with cheer

I pull you out of hardship And refine you like bronze You are my creation And to me you belong

Freedom? The world offers none. There are some things Distractions I call them, That like to twinkle their way into lives Always there, yet never enough How? How is it that us humans walk from day to day in ignorance We look at the sky The sun reflecting off clouds, mere droplets of water floating in the sky We swim in the ocean, bigger than we can wrap our tiny minds around We hike up hills and fall in love We love are families and we hate things that make us feel inferior We obsess We fight We have really beautiful moments And we have really hard memories We lose things And we change and yet stay the same through and through And I could continue to write about the human experience I could write about our washy feelings How they cover us up and make us messy How they dress are faces in tears of joy and hurt How we act complex And yet we are fools at the same time How we dance around heartache but tiptoe around truth I could write about how special each of us are But why? What is the meaning of it all? We feel so deeply We love so hard We go through fires And some come out the other side But Why? You see, there is something missing And yet it stands like an elephant in the room It weighs on us because it is meant to be our foundation So many continue to live their lives in darkness

There are no words I always have trouble explaining God to someone who doesn’t know Him Because He is bigger than I could ever try to describe Were I to speak of His deeds their would be too many to say He is kinder than a smile reaching cheek to cheek He is more than A Father He paints the sky And flashes lighting But He is more than an artist We are personal We see someone hurt and often we feel hurt as well Why? Who taught us this? Have you ever wondered why we are made the way we are? Why is it that we fall in love? Why is it that we are always wanting to chase after something or love someone more than ourselves? It’s not by accident And it is not a bad thing We often think chasing after things is bad Actually it’s quite beautiful when we do it the right way It means we feel empty when left to just satisfy our own selves

God created us to worship And I like to think of worship as chasing after God What would happen if we started thinking about God as much as we think of ourselves Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? The very word of God tells us that are feeble minds are holding us back from our true purpose. I encourage you to take a break from worshipping the blessings God has gifted us and adore the blesser instead. I am at fault of this just as much as you But our gracious God is loving and able to forgive And no plan of His can be thwarted

I know my worth. For I am more than the flowers, and even they are clothed with color Yet, when I’m under the lights And the silence get’s loud That’s when the lies seep their way through me And roll me off to sea

Oh water and ocean come find me! And let the sand swallow my toes Because I want to float away when I’m seen, But to be seen is my greatest desire!

Why is it that roses are louder than lilies And the wind is heard more than water?

Someday I’ll find a waterfall that pours into me everything I lack And my freckles will dance all over my face and they will find a lover for me And when we dance in the forest behind my grandmas porch That is when the clock will stop ticking And I will take my first breath without the weight of the world sitting right on my shoulders

Because to be loved is to be known, so let me run around in circles Hold my hand in the rain and cover me in the blanket of your arms

As for now, the clouds mourn with me and the birds sing a melody that draws me close to sleep

Who am I to be loved To open my eyes and see trees of every color Details where beauty lies Love avoids the rush But upholds art of noticing Of being present Love is time wasted in one space too long And running nowhere just to win a race Love is being alone and being thankful Love is a hug from a stranger Holding hands with a parent no matter the age Love is seeing little kids get messy in the mud and being jealous of their freedom Love is getting in the mud yourself It is laughing at your mistakes And crying with your people And trying to hide your smile but someone knows how to bring it out It is patient And it is beautiful Sometimes it’s hard to see But like the wind it is there Intertwining every way that is made before you True love is not found from one person Or a place or an heirloom It is timeless and strong Love is gold that surpasses the limit of money Love is from above Created and knitted by our creator Who sprinkles it down from the heavens If only people weren’t always looking down

But above From the beautiful breathtaking heavens Comes my hope It does not waver or take breaks But hugs me from behind everywhere I go Long for me, oh waters Swallow me whole, clouds! For only you understand my being Only you give me strength I stayed in the dirt awhile Hoping the grass would sing me to sleep But it only covered me up And trapped me on the ground Break me free, oh vines! Let me see the sky For I miss the light and darkness has become routine Let me fail to sin And live free Outside the people shout for attention, Fight over dust But you have already won, oh God Always let me come back to you My rock and my redeemer The one that lifts my head high

For nothing is real till I’m still And what is silence if one is alone? Adjusting my posture, judgement roars from the outside Who am I to apologize? Something sinks within me, I must not be empty Oh earth, explain your cruelty! For you consider my hunger but not my heart, Oh how forced it feels to be apart Longing for freedom but pain finds an undertow Its greedy currents that take and not give, How tempting it is to drown

Saturate my strength with your scent and watch me fail! For I soften in your sight and desire swallows me whole