I was in a state Where happiness Felt like a gamble.

I could be happy now But would I be happy later? I could be smiling now But would I be crying later?

You feel how you do now But will you feel the same later? You say you want to be with me But will you leave later?

She became my success But eventually my downfall. She became my lesson But eventually my trauma.

Now I look back To see What can I do differently? All I have is my head.

It’s nice to think Even the dead can tell stories.

Take me back to LA. I’ll come, Another day. For something. That was my nothing.

Our love. Holding us. Too tightly, With no room to breathe. It won’t save us.

You said out loud. The vibrations, Hurting. Make it clearer. And it’ll make you cry.

I’m better when I’m by myself.

To see you in my arms. A heaven’s quietude. Forever in due. Never to disparate.

A heaven’s quietude. You are mine. Never to disparate. A solemn marriage.

An unexpected expression. Runs across my face. This is freedom. Pain is lost. To move on, Will be my new.

A moment of anxiousness.
My middle chest.
Full of one sharp knife.
The comfort and ease,
Not at my disposal.
To suffer, this is my way.

He’ll be back. His mind and heart I’ve had. To end this hell. His presence. The abandoned cure.