Before the sun was up I felt the trickle So scared, I turned to him “It’s time to go” Every bump Every turn Felt deep in my body And then there was a pop A gush A puddle The pain that never came My body didn’t work like that They wheeled me away and sliced at my belly Not what I’d hoped for But still, you were here. I cried You cried And you were mine The perfect of the world Was in my arms I never knew how much love could exist Until you were here.
To my teenage self. Life seems like it should be one way but isn’t always the way you think it should be. Remember to trust yourself no matter what you have been told. You are unique and should be loved no matter who you are. Family love is sometimes conditional. Life is a jumble, a puzzle. Find the pieces that fit and work with them to make your puzzle. It’s ok to look for help. Be the person you’re meant to be, even if it goes against your upbringing. You can’t fully let someone else love you until you love yourself. Someone else’s love shouldn’t define you.
As the pink shown through the blinds He came in quietly and said, This isn’t working any more And left me lonely in our bed.
18 months I waited 18 months Id cry And when he finally came home He only said goodbye
He drifted away while he was gone A fact I tried to ignore I tried to hold it together But he walked out the door
Didn’t want to work it out Didn’t want to try I don’t know what went wrong An answer he’ll never supply.
He left me he left me I’m hurt and I’m broke He left me he left me And now I’m the joke.
