i am thankful for the rain that drowns out my sorrow when it’s too loud to be muffled by my lies and false reassurance.

i am thankful you didn’t see me cry....

this is your last chance to love me before I go.

your last chance to hurt me and let me know.

let me know that you hate me and you do not find my flaws cute.

last chance to cry and learn myself through you....

what a strange comfort it was, your presence.

I hoped to always pretend that I didn’t know I intrigued you in all the wrong ways.

was it the relationship the paper had with the pen or was it the time your hands rubbed all over my holy den?

and though I truly don’t want to know, how will I move forward. oh you strange companion....

I tumbled and fell into the pits of my conscious. self awareness should always be feared by those who fight with themselves.

especially when your mind loses.

I won’t pull myself out of bed to fight the person staring back at me in my reflection.

angered that I stuffed their mouths with multicolored pills. none of which worked.

I tumbled and fell into the pits of my conscious. there I sat with my d...

I say I know lofty heights but I’ve never known. compared to the braveness that sits upon the shoulders of your body, I am nothing.

you’ll tell me not to think like that but how can I not.

I’m not capable of being tough my heart is all I’ve got....

-Myia<3

my temple cried today.

why would you leave me so hollow like this?

I would have done anything to make you stay, guilty words of the present..regretting the past. today my temple cried. i tried arguing with myself in the mirror , putting up a fight about spilled milk as we once did. the moments I thought I dreaded, became a memory forever to be associated with grief. this fatal, life withou...