there was no shock resonating through my body at this point. the reaper comes and goes due to my depression. i get so overwhelmed and death seems easy. however, someone always finds me right before i walk through the gate with the reaper. this time felt different. i was alone when i swallowed the pills. made sure to cancel my plans and turn off my locations. as the reaper took my hand, i smiled. i finally felt warm. rather than the usual chill that encompasses my body. the gate came closer and closer. i felt numb & free. the gate opened and we walked forward. there wasn’t any music like the books say, no break in the sky. just calm. the ringing in my head stopped, the buzzing in my feet dulled. i was warm & finally free
if loving you were put into words,
the word would be “immortality” you immortalized me. id live forever in your debt. you’d forever haunt me by your memory. the kind eyes and gentle touches. it would be like being buried alive, with no way out. yet when i would escape, you’d pull me up from the ground and break my heart all over again.