Today im grateful for another chance at life.

Even thought it isn’t always what I want it to be.

For my for family and all those who believe in me.

For who I’ll be in the future, who I was yesterday and who I am today.

I’m even grateful for all the trial and tribulations I endure because in the end I’m always okay.

It’s hard to describe where things started - the beginning of things just disappeared. Always believing I was afraid of time continuing to move forward but the past is what I mostly fear. Every step towards happiness taking me a step further from being happy. Continuously reliving unpleasant events in my mind causing me to view the world as crappy. Repeatedly asking myself, why am I here - why me ? Only to be reminded this is just all apart of the story. After each and every fall down I always manage to pick myself up. Even with a damaged heart I’ll never give up.

When the sky is red and no one is looking, you see my brown eyes.

When my nights are dark and I fear the skies won't clear, you show me you are near.

For days at a time, you bring butterflies through my spine, but then your love strikes my fragile little heart like a wrecking ball and poison vines.

I'm no saint, I've too caused harm to what we call our palace, sleeping in our bed of lives while outside of them we live in the gylais.

Too comfortable to let go too weak to speak, which has me carrying weights of guilt on my back while walking with nails beneath my feet.

Inside it's like I'm fighting fire that's ready to pour out like a fresh class of red wine.

Thoughts of our love and war bursting in my head slowly killing my mind.

This love we created is pernicious and venomous to our souls yet we continue to hold on and promise one another until we’re old.

It's now time for this love we shared to create memories in our bodies and set us free.

And let what is meant to be, be.

They say in order to succeed you must be willing to take risk. So I took the road less traveled by, and that has made all the difference. Not afraid of being uncomfortable or in situations where you might have to make a tough decision. In order to win in this cruel world you sometimes have to be a villain. Of course there are times when one becomes afraid or looses hope of what might happen next. But always remember to stay strong and go for what you believe in until your last breath. Whatever your dream is or whatever it is you aspire to be, know that it is more than possible if you always be who you want to be.

Imagining life without you makes my head spin like a steering wheel. I enjoy the love we share, the moments we create and all the ways you make me feel. Even when lightning tries to come around and tip our boat. Our strong chemistry fights the battle to at least secure us to float. While waiting for the thunderstorms to clear and our differences to defuse, you remind me of all the reasons why I love you and how this is something I never want to loose. Being without you would be like a patient in need of medication. To avoid this draining process I’d take any risk, go any length and destination without any hesitation. Every second of the day I constantly reminisce of things I’d rather do. A billion times for sure it couldn’t be life without you.