Your dreams became mine

When we promised to be forever thine

We scrimped and saved

Extra shifts I gave

So you could build your empire

I became whatever you required

You shared you ruminations and fears

Supporting you through dark and light years

My wifely submission

Became my great commission

My needs I suppressed

Because you could care less

With new tattoos and a fresh hairdo

You pulled ...

Do we rediscover or re -define?

We cannot unsee, or turn back time.

We can move forward, but never back,

We rebrand, rename to make up for our lack

A brand new name with confetti and glitter

Cannot hide the fact that our love has turned bitter

I sought to rediscover you in my life

Yet you filled me heartache and strife

Then I realized in my fruitless attempts to discover you…

I lost myself, a...

The pangs of emotional neglect

Have left me defeated and bereft

Seen but not heard; heard but not seen

A fixture , a forgotten coffe table magazine

Lonely, but not alone

Appearing that I had nothing to bemoan

Knowing i am lacking,

My brain have I been wracking

For a plausible explanation

For my apparent dysregulation

Could it be emotional deprivation?

Sitting with my silent sorrow and ...

You were a house when I needed a home,

A vacant text

When I needed a tome

Your lack of communication left me perplexed

Needing a hand to hold,

But you left me to roam

In health but not in sickness

Your empty promises dwelt

I bled…

And you fled

Into someone else’s bed

Your industry was a disguise for your indiscretion

Anything apart from me became your obsession

You had me hello

But you le...

Tangled am I

In your web of lies

But don’t worry,

I will rise

You were ready to suck the life out of me

But I’m a bee

Not just any you see

But a Queen

And you will feel my sting...

You took my breath away

When your love bomb hit

You cut off the oxygen to my heart

I didn’t need a love bomb

I needed love balm...

You took a gun and shot me in the heart

And as I lay bleeding

You refused to give me the medical attention I was needing

Instead…

You gave me a needle and thread

And said…

Hurry! Sew yourself up!

And I said: what the fuck?

I sewed myself up in a tidy little bow

So that no one would know

On the inside I was slowly bleeding out

My heart was shattered into a 1000 piece puzzle...

Cheat

Cheating

Making love

To someone new

Infidelity

Has shattered our marriage

And yet you still disparage

My attempts to understand it

Your lack of remorse is a bullet

Lodged into my heart forevermore...

My tears pour like rain,

Is there a purpose for all this pain?

I don’t want all this destruction to be in vain

May my tears imbue the land and stain

The earth with their memory of bane

The earth is a witness to my heartache

My tears have memory and validate

My story, the truth

Each teardrop holds a piece of my story

And encapsulates in bitter glory

Because water is living

It sustains li...

You sullied our marriage bed

To avoid your inner pain

All for a fleeting rush of dopamine

You say it was just a midlife crisis…

In which I was just collateral damage,

As Your words and actions were irrevocably savage

You made me think I was the problem

You began to blame and gaslight

Avoiding intimacy, connection and a fair fight

In your attempt to

Mistake Vs. Choice?

Mistakes just happen…

I...