Do you ever just wonder where it all went wrong? Or how you could be so freaking blind to something so obvious? I do. I wonder these things all the time. I wonder why I am stuck in a dead end job wasting away my talents working for a monster manager. I wonder why I was in love with a man that never wanted children when all I ever wanted was a baby of my own. I wonder how I could move hours a...

“Camping! Camping! Camping!” Cried one “Yay! Let’s GO!” Hollered another. I sighed. Now, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE camping. I really do. I used to go all the time. That was in the before days though. Before the husband. Before the kids. Before the kids the kids brought home. Before. Oh how I miss the before. When loading the car with tent and blankets and a cooler of food was simp...

I walked across the teakwood deck to the table at the railing. The deck table is my favourite place to take dinner. It has the perfect view for admiring a summers evening. Tonight will be no exception. The evening is warm and the wind is barely a whisper. I set my plate and cup down on the table and sit in the chair facing the lake. Always the best seat in the house. My view looks over abou...

Sadness. It’s wrapped around me like a cloak. I can’t shake it off. Every time I try and do something that may better my mood, the cloak pulls me down, drowning me. Days. It’s been days since I managed to get off the couch. The TV isn’t on. My phone died a week ago. The charger is on the desk. Maybe I should go get it. Meh. Who would want to talk to me anyway. My stomach growls in prot...

I rub the sleep out of my eyes and splash some water on my face. Hands on either side of the sink, I lean in and critique myself in the mirror. Those are some serious bags under my eyes. I really need to figure out a way to actually sleep. Maybe I will go to the walk-in clinic after work. Jess suggested it last week, and I really should have done it then. If I get something to help I will wa...