I would count everything that makes you, you Your every freckle to your laugh The way your eyes light up when you see me The words you use to describe how you feel about me The way your eyes start to water when I say I have to leave Your choice of words you use What makes you, you Are all the things I love

I hear it Every day “I love you” That whisper Made your voice sound like heaven Made me constantly think of you No matter what emotions I am feeling I listen to your voice And I feel instantly better Your voice heals me You heal me You

I tried to hide it But the truth came out The truth on how I feel about you How deeply I care about you That night, all perceptions of you changed in my mind You became and most perfect girl I have ever seen I couldn’t hide these feelings They were to strong When I knew you felt the same Nothing else mattered anymore Just you and me

Her love concurs me She makes me feel like I’m under a spell Her scent smelled of roses Roses to match her hair Her eyes are a light green
Her laugh so contagious, I would do anything for her She makes me feel like the ocean The waves picking up and crashing on the beach She makes me feel calm And that I would do anything for her She is a spell herself She caught me in her spell And for that, I am forever grateful

You’ve come back, but I no longer need you Family is supposed to be there for you That’s what they say But you weren’t there for me The longing for your presence is not a necessity The pain my heart used to ache is never forgotten Those lonely nights of my tears filling oceans The dark corners of my room never forget my presence My bed indented with my body outline The house looks empty Because you were supposed to fill it You should of been there You should of been there, for me

Swirling smoke I close my eyes I wake up in the night While the gray, dense air sinks into my lungs I hear constant ringing And the oxygen is leaving Im holding onto the ledge While its cutting into my wrists If I drop the pain stops But so do I I dont know if I want to stop Maybe I should try No matter how much pain I absorb Throughout the night

I’m awake I sleep six hours every night But I’m always awake The pain in my chest The shortness of breath from the lungs The pain of nausea in my stomach It keeps me awake Being anxious all the time Confused and stressed over little things It keeps me awake and alive But also in pain So I have to chose Being awake Or being asleep

It wasn’t yours to take, but neverless you ripped it from my grasp I held on to it with my life My innocence the last thing keeping me together I held it like rope Even though the rope was on fire It was my rope You took it from me You were the one who ripped away the thing that made me, me You took it with no shame No guilt My hands stopped burning But I lost everything

Rain soothes me It gives me relief But it can get you wet The water can rise above you Where you cannot stop it Struggling to breathe and keep afloat You try to stop the rain But it always comes back Again and again Stronger than before Until one day It rains But quicker than the times before Higher than normal Until you are under Your head pounding Begging for oxygen that your body needs But you can’t get it that oxygen You cannot simply ask for help So you struggle daily just to breathe