i put up a good fight

but the darkness hugs me in a way no one else has before it’s the one thing that would never leave me

“choose me” it beckons

it’s predictable familiar comfortable easier

i don’t want to go back. but it tugs at my mind

“you’ll get to rest” it says

im tired

i put up a good fight, but im too tired

“okay” i say, “but only stay for a little while this time. Just so i can rest for a bit”.

“i missed you” it replies with a smile

I loved you so fiercely that I burned; now, I am only left with ashes.

And if those ashes were the only thing I had left, I would sweep them into a box, put a bow on it, give it to you and sign it:

from, your love.

I’m drowning I’m drowning, but I let the chain stay shackled The bolt cutters are next to me

I’m drowning I’m drowning, but if I’m not, then you will be Weight on my shoulders

I’m drowning I’m drowning, but if I don’t carry you on my shoulders then you will drown And you’re not strong enough

I’m drowning I’m drowning, preaching self love, telling my friends to put themselves first Hypocrite

I’m drowning I’m drowning, but they don’t understand, I have to give you air You come first to my own detriment

I’m drowning I’m drowning, but I feel something warm slide down my cheek Wait

I’m drowning I’m drowning, but this water tastes familiar Tastes like my sadness

I’m drowning I’m drowning in my own tears My own pain My own sorrow My own grief My own broken heart My own sadness

Your ankle is bruised

There’s a broken chain next to my bolt cutters

You deserve to be free Yet you don’t feel free Yet you are still sad So I carry you Because I love you

I should let you drown, but you do not know how to swim

I’m drowning I’m drowning