I’m infinitely curious but equally breakable
Too soft to bury a truth unmistakable
So I search for the truth but then swaddle a lie
Why stare into hell when you could hide in the sky?
My faith is a phone I dropped down the gutter
When clarity honks my exhaust pipes sputter
Burrowing as deep in the sand as the buildings are tall
Seeing everything demands feeling nothing at all
So I plead wi...
To the girl in the velvet dress:
When you were born
You signed an unspoken contract
To agree to the silence
To not ask questions
To not challenge the status quo
The evidence is written
In stiff photo album poses and diamond smiles
In grand halls with high ceilings and tiny forks
In rides on friends’ boats
In itchy velvet kids clothes on Christmas morning
In safety handed out like ratio...
Growing up was constantly
Swimming
With no gills
In a pool of ice water
Always moving
Pursuing
The label of
Your perfect daughter
You love me, you applaud me
You know that I’m smart
But what happens when
Miss perfect
Stops playing her part?
Will you still adore me
If about me
You can no longer brag?
If I start speaking my mind?
Waving a more colorful flag?
If I center my values
Instead of padding ...
If I’m bi why can’t I just marry a man?
I don’t just exist in the spaces in-between
I make the in-between take up space.
My first crushes were an elf with a bow and young Leo.
I was so sure of my feelings and also not sure at all.
After all, I was a uniform school girl who loved RENT.
I wanted a boy because I wanted a boy to want me.
Other girls made me nervous, especially the pretty ones.
The...
I thought I got rid of him
I thought I cleared the air
Of his toxic chemical breath
And his scary witch hair
My scars from where he ate me
Had been healing recently
Until today he swam up out of nowhere
To bite off another piece of me
The cuddle fish say “he’s crazy!”
Even the eels say “it’s not your fault!”
But his attacks drew so much blood
That I’m perfect prey for more assault
P...
Dear diary,
I love him but
When I’m in bed with him,
I can only see,
When I close my eyes.
And when I do
I don’t feel his lips on mine.
I imagine hers.
Soft and beautiful
The curves on her body
Sharp and sweet like citrus,
A glass prism hitting the light
Just right.
I want her.
This faceless femme
In the way the horizon wants the sun.
Every night.
What is wrong with me?
He’s so kind,...
Oh what peace this day should bring
In a solar orbit’s sling
Because sound doesn’t know yet how to yell
In the cosmic great nothing
But when it’s quiet enough to hear my thoughts
The inner supernovas spark
The BOOM of chaotic swirling stars
Cloud the relief of the quiet dark
Jupiter’s stormy eye entraps me
Swirling unable to unwind
Why does the mass of a trillion galaxies
Have weaker pull than m...
I can’t help but love
And look for things to love in the souls of others.
Love is the entire sky.
But to find another woman to love, I can’t just go to any bar
And wait to get hit on.
I have to sense the queer parts in the crevices of others,
And hope they’ll unlock them for me.
As a result, I’ve seen some shooting stars.
I excite them for a while.
But in the end,
I am always flowers wi...
I get angry at my mom
Because she’s the one place
Where it’s safe to be.
Where when I’m shattered glass,
I can be sharp and vicious
Instead of a kind mirror.
I hate to see her bleed.
But I’m sick of sanding down my edges.
Glass is meant to be pointy.
I’m sorry mom.
I bite the hand that feeds me,
Because I know you will always love me....
