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I want auroras and sad prose. Here exploring my own folklore
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TheLakes17
I want auroras and sad prose. Here exploring my own folklore
I want auroras and sad prose. Here exploring my own folklore
I want auroras and sad prose. Here exploring my own folklore
What if this is it?
There’s no further I can go?
To figure out what’s wrong with me
Because there’s nothing left to know?
I collected all the pebbles
All the pieces of my past
So why am I not fixed?
Why can’t I solve myself at last?
The diamonds I uncovered
Gave me the clarity I lacked
So the time to dig is over
And yet I can’t bring myself to act
So I sink deeper and deeper
...
It’s the last time
the sun will find a crevice between skyscrapers,
to warm up my window and
bathe the room in sparkles,
comforting me and
stroking the leaves
of my spoiled fiddle leaf fig.
It’s the last time
I’ll step onto my balcony,
into the fresh air after a long day indoors,
to absorb the energy of
eager drivers and leisurely diners,
as dusk turns to night.
It’s the last time
I’ll ...
When I first felt it,
My rainbow felt like rain.
A torrential downpour.
A Kinsey 5 hurricane.
It was beauty and it was pain.
A loss and a gain.
When this technicolor
lightning
strike
Short-circuited my brain.
So I buzzed and buzzed,
Tried to think my way out
Of the truth of me,
I was lying about.
_Out of everyone, why me? _
_After all this time, why now?_
_Is this a truth...
Is she out there?
My shooting star? The one who will paint my nights pink and gold and teal,
and every shade of blue?
Is she out there?
My other half, the one who gets me, and who I can't help but tell all my secrets to.
Is she out there?
My best friend, who'll endure the worst of me,
and sing along,
while I play bad guitar?
Is she out there?
My perfect compliment, who’ll open new dime...
Tw: eating disorders
Deflation is my air
Hunger is my fuel
To power through my days
At the loneliest high school
-2
I want the warmth of friendship but
Their cold shoulders rub me raw
But perhaps they’ll finally see me
If I have a body without flaw
-4.2
So I eat an apple slowly
Block all memory of the past
Make my body worth a boy
So they’ll want to hang with me at last
+1
Lunch? Wh...
You know I’m not ok
So why don’t my long pauses, subdued sighs
And that dead look in my eyes
Speak for me?
You know I’ll never say
That I need you but
Obviously my empty weekends
And unwashed hair are a silent plea
Why don’t you know that
Sending you to voicemail means
I need you now?
Why can’t you get that
“I’m alright”
Means I want to cry for help but
I don’t know how?
I’m so mad you ...
At night I lay awake in bed
Thinking about all the stupid things I’ve ever said
When it’s quiet all they come rushing back
My cringe moments
Lie dormant
Until they Attack
Flying at me all at once
Turning my pillow from cold to warm
Replacing the warm breeze of contentment
With bees
that sting
and swarm
So to escape this ...
I can’t believe they know
Now that they broke inside
And they can see the dark ink blots
That stain my mind
What if they freak out?
Or worse, what if they don’t care?
What if this blows up
And gets stains everywhere?
They said the heist was out of love but
My pain is MINE to tell!
I gave them my story
To...