BagelRat

Mostly write about my overwhelming thoughts. Mostly depressing writings so just a little warning.

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BagelRat

Mostly write about my overwhelming thoughts. Mostly depressing writings so just a little warning.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4wxm1czj4shavuseonv6tz?si=xkwm73lytqgpx46xblrqjq&pi=u-xl2mmj3lt1ir

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Mistake

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1 min read

I’m sorry I wasn’t enough

I’m sorry I’m not like your other daughters

I’m sorry I don’t have a perfect body

I’m sorry you don’t love me

I’m sorry I was a mistake

**_ Im sorry….

_**I wish you didn’t body shame me

I wish I was strong

I wish I was smart

I wish I loved myself

I wish I didn’t look like this

I wish the voices weren’t so loud

I wish you cared

I wish I was...

Poetry

Breathe

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1 min read

“Hey, look it’s a grave! Quick don’t breathe..”

Trust me I wasn’t breathing

My lungs are giving out

My vocals are broken

I dig deeper into my arms, legs, and chest

**_Breathe_**__

My eyes roll back

Blood drips to the floor

Scars from head to toe

**_Breathe_**__

What’s my name?

Is that the ambulance?

Who’s shouting?

Who’s...

Skinny

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1 min read

Another sleepless night

Fresh blood on my wrist

A empty stomach

Trying to look like a model

Teardrops on my pillow

Blood on my blade

Starving myself

Trying to feel something…

Just something…

Just breathe…

“Pull me out of the train wreck”...

Poetry

Passing

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1 min read

It’s been a year since you’ve died. Today I went fishing with my mom I wish you were there. You left us behind and I blame myself. I want to see you soon. I wish you could have taking me hunting and fishing. But now your six feet under with no tombstone. Your wife is working to get money for a gravestone but it’s difficult. We all wish you were here. I’m sorry your kidneys failed and you rotted aw...

Do You Think About Us?

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1 min read

Do you ever think about us? Do you think of those moments we had? Do you still think about me? Your name has been in graved In my heart. You still sneak into my dreams. I wish I could have you back in my arms once again. Do you think about us?...

Poetry

Heartbreak

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1 min read

With the night comes darkness, but also the stars. Phone calls, tears, blood, knife, pain, and it all somehow repeats itself. You took my heart and my hoodies. You hit me with a car and felt no sympathy. You called the police and thought it could help. But now your just dancing on my grave. The edge was so close that night. I was screaming out to god to help me find my wings. But it’s not my time ...

Poetry

Blood

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1 min read

Sinking deeper into my mattress. Watching the blood drip don’t my wrist. In straight and uneven lines. Closing my eyes and wishing and praying for my death. Sinking lower and lower in to the pit of despair....

New Me

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1 min read

It’s time I spill the beans.

My name is Maggie.

My life’s kind of trashy.

I try to change.

But people see me the same.

I grew up not knowing who I am.

Maybe that’s okay?

No one sees me for who I truly am.

All I can do is try to be who I am.

I just have to fight through the cuts, bruises and scars....

Poetry

Monster

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1 min read

Why is it that I’m always seen as a monster. When am I ever taken under consideration? when have I been loved? is this thing I’m seeking for just not there? Or am I not ready to look for it…?...

Family

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1 min read

Everybody wants to judge me but nobody wants to listen to me. I told them what they did. But they didn't care. So I packed my bags and left. I never wanted to come back but I was forced to. I don't want to be here. Instead of hurting her, I hurt myself. I have scars from where I cut and a fresh new one from last night. Every time I'm in this house there is such a heavy burden on me. I want to esca...