**Gone was my beloved muse, the puppet I tried to play, and the one I tried to love. But love is not love when you’re loving an image not the person. I am, at bottom, an obsessive spoiled brat, who believed every color, every word, every coincidence, to be a symbol that we were meant to be. I told myself I was letting go of my inhibitions, but why did I find myself contorting my identity, just so ...