The happiness of a birthday,

The celebration of aging a year older,

The excitement to open all the gifts you get,

The joy of blowing out the candles,

That was what it was like when you were still here.

But you’re not here,

You’re gone.

And now my birthdays don’t feel the same,

Another year aged with you gone,

All the gifts knowing yours will never be one I open,

Blowing out the candles with a l...

I don’t know what this feeling is,

But somehow I feel my eyes landing on you even in a crowded room.

My heart aches whenever I see you in pain,

Wether that be physically or emotionally.

How I wish I was the glass you press your lips to,

And the person you woke up to in the morning.

Is this love?

I truly do not know,

But it must be something close to it....

Being with him was like battling the weather,

Each day a new challenge.

Whether it came pouring down all at once,

Or like little droplets landing in puddles left previously.

Even when we had our sunny days,

They were always clouded,

With the reminders of her....

It’s difficult,

Watching your heart break.

Knowing there is nothing I can do,

To make it better.

I’d do anything to make it stop,

But it isn’t enough.

Isn’t enough to stop the hurt you are feeling,

Isn’t enough for you to go back to how you were,

And that hurts me.

It hurts me watching you hurt.

Every time you cry it hurts me,

Angers me,

Every tear you shed sparks a fire in my chest....

She was like the sun in my sky,

Constantly lightening up my day just with her presence.

She was perfect.

Being with her felt like being a god,

I had the world at my fingertips.

I loved her everyday with all I could offer,

It may not have been much but it was all I had.

She will forever be the best chapter in my long and complicated life.

That’s why I told her as we parted,

“It’s better to have...

I’m so sorry.

I’m so sorry I couldn’t help you.

I’m so sorry I wasn’t there when you needed me.

I’m so sorry I hurt you, I didn’t mean it.

The man wept and wept,

Tears streaming down his aging face,

This apology however came too late.

She was already gone.

And he was still there,

Carrying all the guilt....

The Prince and princess of music,

It was meant to be.

I loved the idea of us on stage together,

I loved the idea of us writing songs together,

Duetting with our beautiful voices,

Taking over the whole music scene,

I loved that idea.

There was just one thing I didn’t love,

Him.

I wanted to love him.

He had loved me for years.

But sometimes in life you fall in love with ideas, not people,

And ...

Never again will I fall for a writer,

Someone who’s job it is to make up stories.

To twist words that make you believe what you are reading is true.

What they don’t tell you is that they do that in real life too.

He made up a story of us,

Making me think I was in love.

I will not fall for another writer,

Never again....

I wish I had never let go.

I wish I had held onto you a little harder.

How did I let you slip through my fingers.

You were everything I could ever ask for,

And I ruined it.

I let it go.

I let you go.

And now I’m stuck,

Watching you love someone else,

Who is so perfect for you,

While I still can’t get over you....

I watched you kiss her.

I watched you notice me.

I watched your eyes fill with regret.

I watched you watching me,

Waiting for my next move

But I couldn’t move.

A minute felt like a year,

And in that moment,

Time had never passed so slowly....