I am afraid of crying in public
I am afraid of thunderstorms
And that I am a bad teacher
I am afraid of my own voice when I yell
I am afraid of the dark
Because in it I can see all my flaws
I am afraid of being stuck
In some suffocating space
Like the crevice of a rock
Or with an unfaithful lover
I am afraid of the way hospitals smell
I am afraid of my own heart
Because it is glass
I am a...
Am I so wrong for weeping
In the times you are away?
I can only love you deeply
Never any other way
In nightmares I have lost you
And when I wake I fear
They have become reality
Because you are not near
I know we’ll be united
Post this agonizing night
But though dark is not eternal
It makes us forget the light
So in moments my strength fails me
I cry out to skies of gray
Am I so wrong for w...
“Who is that there?”
I pause, my eyes locked on the mirror
The face inside of it is new
She is fresh with an unfamiliar warmth
That bleeds from the corners
Of shimmering eyes
Into the blaze of a genuine smile
And there I saw beauty
In each crease and crevice of her skin
There was a gentle power in her hands
And resplendent wisdom
In shoulders
That too often carried boulders
But for once,
Were...
In the vastness of the cosmos
Out where moonbeams never shone
I drifted, but a snuffed out star
In dimness, left alone
Without a fire to guide me
I pawed through asteroid dust
Grasping for another star
On whose light I could trust
How quickly other lights had fled
On seeing my estate
No comfort for a blackened star
That miserable ingrate
But there was one who ventured
To step nearer to my ma...
Can I kiss you
Platonically?
I promise, just as friends
It will only take a second
You’ll forget it when it ends
I only want to tell you
In the best way I know how
You make my world seem brighter
And I need you in it now
You’re the piece of me that’s missing
You’re my flashlight in the dark
You turn weeping into laughter
You’re a neverending spark
I can call myself a po...
There is a black hole inside of my chest
He cannot see it, perhaps for the best
I am so unworthy of all of his light
Can a sunbeam ever love the Queen of the Night?
I’m damaged beyond what I want him to know
The achings I live with do nothing but grow
He’d vanish at once in the very hour
That the Queen of the Night showed the whole of her power
I am the serpent, disguised as a dove
Bringing not...
I’m singing a duet, solo
Making up your part as I go
I can be a tenor if I try
To picture you behind my soprano
I’m singing a duet, solo
Registering both high and low
As seamless as if you were here
Tickling black and white on the piano
I’m singing a duet, solo
Creating notes no one yet knows
Wishing I had a partner to sing with
So my duet wouldn’t feel so
...
Holding my breath til my face turns blue
Afraid that if I let go, you will too
This must be some fictitious work of mine
That landed me with something unbelievably divine
I am a beetle scuttling in the dark
When the room is engulfed by the light of a spark
But though full of joy from the warmth that I feel
I am so overwhelmed, i don’t know if it’s real
I want to believe there could possibly be
...
I like counting the stars on my ceiling
Creating constellations unheard of
Between cresting eagles
And strokes of silver wind,
I’ve connected avenues into
A place where I’d like to live
I gathered you out of stardust
Built you in the workshop of my room
Plastering you in the sky
To fly beside me
And it is glorious, how those two swim
Through a sea of stars on my ceiling
Their hands interlocked...
It’s fine when you’re thirteen
Writing hearts around his name
Feeling seasick as he walks by
You have to force yourself to breath
When you hear his voice
Cause it makes you want to lay down and die
Pen these long journal entries about him
How you’ll be married when you’re both old
And though you barely ever talk
You’re almost semi-quasi stalking him
Which is fine!
You’re only thirteen years old
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