The frustration of longing It’s like you’re never listening No matter what I say But your eyes are glistening

I’m sorry I couldn’t be all you expected of me It’s so hard to accept I’ll never be the perfect man Long drive home But your arms don’t feel the same Here it goes Out the window It’s all for show

It’s like pulling out the rug From under my own feet No matter how hard I stand I’ll always miss the beat

Couldn’t make it here No I could never bear The immense weight Of this relationship I wear Poo

I block out all the noise

Wait for Everything here in you To be free Clear the Battlefield of noise To meet you out in the field Of wonder

Kill the noise Before it kills you Block it out And sift through What makes us whole again

It’s you I care for It’s you I long for It’s you It’s you

Laid down to waste Everything down here is but a bitter taste I long For The world to catch up instead

Here it all is It’s fucked and never coming back Lay me out here I’ll never see you fight against the world Like you used to Like I want to Fear of death has come around I don’t want to But I need to Clear it all against my own Best intentions

The noise fights backs Points to what I lack How can I shut up the world What will never shut it down There’s no key There’s no kill Here we are Setting fire to a world made of coal

It’s Christmas Day The anxiety is killing me I’m Christmas Day Eating me alive How could I live up to what they wanted me to be How could I live up to what was expected of me Breathe in breathe out Don’t let them know what happens now As the oxytocin enters my bloodstream It’s fine I can’t be What they expected of me Inhibited by self loathing The blood from my wrist seeps through this clothing Leave me here It’s so clear I’m not good I’m not even good enough To let you get near Open the disappointment You’ll do this alone

Tell me the truth It’s not that hard I’ll turn away my face Let the mind begin to race

Tell me the truth It’s here I know so we’ll But here you escape to hell As well

I Am In hell As far as I can tell I left my mind I’m the wishing well You can’t wait to hear It call it’s here to tell You I’m sorry I’m sorry

But when I turn my face to black Your body interacts To sorrow To sorrow Get a grip she said I can’t do this instead Tomorrow Tomorrow Get a grip

I have no words to say You wont be here to stay I have a living breathing Heart split in two You’ve got my body With nothing to prove The red spills to blue It seems you have to Keep your mind inside Why can’t I say You’re not in the grey In the black and not turning back The stream of blood Bleeds into the mind But your curves are so divine

Here into now I can’t wear a frown I came to say I’m never coming down So while you’re here You know where I’m found But I can’t hear a sound

I’ve got a trail of blood in the pool I can’t help to wonder If it will lead me to you The only one who knows where I’m found But you won’t make a sound

My body dying The world whispering Whispering I plant the seed to go I can’t see anything anyways I can’t escape this hell

When will you see the way I bleed? My body covering covering The way I see the light

Can we slow down? For just a little while I can’t go now These four walls hold me in this chair

What does it mean? The way my body breathes What does it mean? The way I can’t hear

Please find me In another life I’m hiding In another world tonight

Please find me In anothe r life Im hiding Out in space tonight

But move slow They’ll never know How I won’t go around No more

It shows I know I’ll never be enough somehow But when It shows The world Will know The past Is gone I’ll come Along

So here I am I’m right here and you don’t have to go I know It shows That I’m not a person No more

But go I know

It seems like every days the same It’s seems to fade to black With every second that I lack To euthanize the slack I’m letting out the fire tonight Poo

On the edge Staring down At the cliff Am I all that’s left

Down the barrel of a loaded gun Says the man to his son Leave me here It’s not worth it I’m not here to fear you I’m here to let you go

As we fall from the edge together It seems like tomorrow isn’t here It won’t come My life It’s come undone This game is done My song is sung

The prize I keep For myself Is not for you But for myself

I’m trying to be better But that isn’t good enough It simply won’t do It’s just an excuse For why I could never follow you

Listening to my heart instead of my head Makes me feel like I’m better off dead All the spinning The trials

I’m the afternoon My eyes and my ears Swell like balloons Heart is raked At a pressing pace My head it aches My heart it breaks

Can we forget everything we said yesterday? We can call it a mistake for where we lay Can we forget all the lies and fights We can forget it all to save ourselves

We can lose our minds in Time Sit back let it all unwind In the garden of tomorrow Smelling our roses as they wither away

The tree of life has roots Not all of them connect into Eachother but they will become A product of the soil theyll grow

The maid of interest The sorrow of tomorrow The time it finds A way to make us all unwind Uh yuh

Lost, feeding on the heartless hero Here to take the monstrous heathen

Long drives Long nights Late fights Foresight

Prejudicial partnerships

I was your anti hero The monster was indispensable I fought I borrowed Sold and stole For what I could never afford On the floor It becomes so cold The hero beats it out for more The monster was here and now God can you find out how

I was never the offender That was you all along I won’t be your monster Even though that’s what you need me to me

I can’t be there I can’t be everything you need I won’t be your anti hero You have to cut this out Until you hit the bottom

The bottom The bottom

Sink Sink Sink Until you hit the bottom

Where the monster sits Waiting for you To consume you To become you Fuck oh uh oh uh

In another place in time She’s lost inside The wheels retract And let out a deafening sigh

She was never meant for this world I can’t say she’s getting old Clearly a dime a dozen Her heart is buzzing

When will she see That she’s not where she’s mean to be It’s here in time Where it all unwinds

Some times she’s in trouble The world had made her out to be a terrible thing But cuz fx doin s she begins to sing Her beauty is like no other We care for one another Sorry I’m late I can’t escape the fate