The frustration of longing
It’s like you’re never listening
No matter what I say
But your eyes are glistening
I’m sorry I couldn’t be all you expected of me
It’s so hard to accept
I’ll never be the perfect man
Long drive home
But your arms don’t feel the same
Here it goes
Out the window
It’s all for show
It’s like pulling out the rug
From under my own feet
No matter how hard I stand
I’ll alwa...
I block out all the noise
Wait for
Everything here in you
To be free
Clear the
Battlefield of noise
To meet you out in the field
Of wonder
Kill the noise
Before it kills you
Block it out
And sift through
What makes us whole again
It’s you
I care for
It’s you
I long for
It’s you
It’s you
Laid down to waste
Everything down here is but a bitter taste
I long
For
The world to catch up instea...
It’s Christmas Day
The anxiety is killing me
I’m Christmas Day
Eating me alive
How could I live up to what they wanted me to be
How could I live up to what was expected of me
Breathe in breathe out
Don’t let them know what happens now
As the oxytocin enters my bloodstream
It’s fine I can’t be
What they expected of me
Inhibited by self loathing
The blood from my wrist seeps through this clothing
...
Tell me the truth
It’s not that hard
I’ll turn away my face
Let the mind begin to race
Tell me the truth
It’s here I know so we’ll
But here you escape to hell
As well
I
Am
In hell
As far as I can tell
I left my mind
I’m the wishing well
You can’t wait to hear
It call it’s here to tell
You I’m sorry
I’m sorry
But when I turn my face to black
Your body interacts
To sorrow
To sorrow
Get a grip ...
I have no words to say
You wont be here to stay
I have a living breathing
Heart split in two
You’ve got my body
With nothing to prove
The red spills to blue
It seems you have to
Keep your mind inside
Why can’t I say
You’re not in the grey
In the black and not turning back
The stream of blood
Bleeds into the mind
But your curves are so divine
Here into now
I can’t wear a frown
I came to say
I’...
My body dying
The world whispering
Whispering
I plant the seed to go
I can’t see anything anyways
I can’t escape this hell
When will you see the way I bleed?
My body covering covering
The way I see the light
Can we slow down?
For just a little while
I can’t go now
These four walls hold me in this chair
What does it mean?
The way my body breathes
What does it mean?
The way I can’t hear
Please ...
On the edge
Staring down
At the cliff
Am I all that’s left
Down the barrel of a loaded gun
Says the man to his son
Leave me here
It’s not worth it
I’m not here to fear you
I’m here to let you go
As we fall from the edge together
It seems like tomorrow isn’t here
It won’t come
My life
It’s come undone
This game is done
My song is sung
The prize I keep
For myself
Is not for you
But for myself
I’...
Listening to my heart instead of my head
Makes me feel like I’m better off dead
All the spinning
The trials
I’m the afternoon
My eyes and my ears
Swell like balloons
Heart is raked
At a pressing pace
My head it aches
My heart it breaks
Can we forget everything we said yesterday?
We can call it a mistake for where we lay
Can we forget all the lies and fights
We can forget it all to save ourselv...
Lost, feeding on the heartless hero
Here to take the monstrous heathen
Long drives
Long nights
Late fights
Foresight
Prejudicial partnerships
I was your anti hero
The monster was indispensable
I fought I borrowed
Sold and stole
For what I could never afford
On the floor
It becomes so cold
The hero beats it out for more
The monster was here and now
God can you find out how
I was never the offe...
In another place in time
She’s lost inside
The wheels retract
And let out a deafening sigh
She was never meant for this world
I can’t say she’s getting old
Clearly a dime a dozen
Her heart is buzzing
When will she see
That she’s not where she’s mean to be
It’s here in time
Where it all unwinds
Some times she’s in trouble
The world had made her out to be a terrible thing
But cuz fx doin
s she b...