Again. I head that sound, I heard my name and it getting annoying. As long as I ignore the sound, it gets louder. I strives to fix it or make this like my normal daily life. So, I tried to find some books about it and even watch the movies that are similar to this symptoms I guess. However, I never figured out. I feel like I’m scurrying around the perpetual grief and having an intermittent break. I thought sleeping was a moment when I can truly feel safe and ensured. Why the fuck does it have to be 7 a.m. I don’t even get plenty of sleep.
As I watched through her life, I wanted to hug her and give her the warmnesses. After her monther died, she turned crooked and aggressive. I tried to claim her before she turned like that so I could be the sole savior in her life hut I failed. Although, I know how awful it was to lose the loved ones but I don’t eirher want to lose her. I need to rescue her. I’ll exringuish her cruel mind and turn that into an obsession. I went up to her neatly and say the prepared word I practiced thousand times. “Engage with me!”
That one day, when my friend, Gaia, shouted out the secret. My entire life has changed. Leo, one my elementary school friend, everyone in my school liked him because he was those cute paragon who’s half blooded of Janpaness and American. Although, I’ve never thought he was charming to me. However, I’ve noticed he has changed a bit, more attractive than before. That was the a year after I knew him. First year in high school, the most stressful and fansinating things happens. Everyone find new person everyday, and I guess he was just one the kind. I told my friend the day I found him pretty cute. Gaia wasn’t surprised that much and just shouted in the class where there was him. I tried to make her shut but she was faster. “Emma thinks Leo is cute!.” That moment, my cheek went pink and begin to blush so hard.
