My grandmother always told me to not fall in love with an emotionally unavailable man. From her, she knew the best. She once fell in love, had kids, married, but unhappy and kicked to the curb.
An emotionally unavailable man can kill a soul, pull the weeds from the ground with such a vigorous effort that seems to snap the weed. Sometimes people forget that those weeds are needed. Think of it like moral lessons—without them, they won’t give the soil a chance for growth.
An emotionally unavailable man can make a heart beat, can make it flutter with excitement and access to the endless possibilities of happiness. However, they don’t carry happiness. They carry themselves, and themselves only.
So, don’t fall in love with an emotionally unavailable man, for which to have your fairytale ending, you must carry your own emotion to sense others.
Her glossy tears and the unsettling smile was all in her face. Shades of pink and red surrounded her cheeks, showing her grief. She cried, the abandonment, the sorrow and in that moment I saw myself. I saw the younger me in that same position. If only she know that these tears only last temporarily. Her eyes emotionless and empty. Longing for something more, more than the black sheep we will forever be.
those moments spent are down at the dumpster. you immature human being, who has no knowledge of the human mind. how dare you? my body and mind turns sick at just the thought of you. this is me taking back everything. may my presence haunt you for the rest of your life.
what did i do? why must i be so unconsidered of her emotions? my precious moments with her, the first love, are nothing but memories. a kind soul who loves with all of her hearts now despises me. her presence will forever haunt me for the rest of my life.
Claire M: Dear Diary, I did it. I broke it off. I was tired of living the same broken routine. Wake up, argue, cry, sleep. It’s draining. Don’t get me wrong, I tried so hard. But, it wasn’t enough. Didn’t he understand? The words spoken in hatred takes a toll on the human mind. Makes you wonder if they hate you, or even liked you in the first place. So, it’s done. He begged me to reconsider. However, I stood my ground. For the first time, I didn’t let him win. I didn’t let him get the best of me.
Han D: Dear Diary, She actually did it. She ended it. Was I not enough? What a stupid brat! She should have reconsider her decision. It wasn’t me in the wrong in the relationship, it was all her. I hope she relized the mistake she made. The hope she lost to have a perfect family that she dreamed of. I hate her with all of my heart.
Claire M: Months later… Dear Diary, I never felt this happy in a long time. It’s been a while since I experience a morning without tears, without the heavy heart. My friends and I grew closer. Our giggles between our inside jokes bring a light mood to every gloomy day. I haven’t missed him, I just hope him the best for his life, that he moves on to bigger and better things. I feel light, like a sponge willing to soak in my day and take in every positive adventure. These times make me relized that life exquisite, I will not take it for granted!
Han D: Months later… Dear Diary, I can’t move on. I tried so hard but for some reason I find ways to come back. I was in the wrong, I was the stupid one. Not her, not at all! She was the angel holding me in tough times, without her light is lost in the tunnel. I tried dating another Claire but I just see “my” Claire. I want her to come back, I need her to give me another chance. One more. I need to make it right for her, for us! Deep down in my heart, it’s never going to happen and that is a heartache I have to live with for the rest of my life.
Cold sweat drips from my head. My palms tremble from the nervous wreck. “Im sorry, there is nothing else we can do.” The air leaves my lungs, as tears sting my eyes. I am not perfect, but why me? Out of all of the beings on earth, why me? As emotions burst, my loved ones stand still. Paralyzed. Suddenly, the room feels more closed in. My red eyes shut and for a moment, I feel at peace.
