As I looked into your eyes, I saw my future go up in flames. No instant ignition No fuel required Just fire Destruction Silence

~Abandoned Butterfly

You broke down walls I thought were guarded for life You opened my mind beyond comprehension You loved me wholeheartedly before I could even love myself Best friend a name I don’t give away lightly Lover you were gifted my mind body and soul Cheerleader constant motivation and reason to move on Therapist wisdom given and non judgmental conversations so deep they ended in tears of relief Who is this man who gave me the gift of finding me He is Walter

Even the dead tell stories Deep from within To learn and to cry Understand and amend Forthcoming and fruitful Painfully sound These are the stories we too shall be bound

Bound by a promise Awakened by despair He looks all around Lost without a care His mind has gone blank No longer knows his name Lost in the fog Alone in the deep Bound by a promise he couldn’t keep

Ten… The world seems so chaotic Nine… Why is this happening to me Eight… Maybe it’s all my fault Seven… Maybe it’s no one’s fault at all Six… It’s not me it’s him Five… Then just let him go Four… But I can’t I’m in love Three… But does he show you that same love Two… So what is that telling you One… To Start over and be free Free as can be…

The lies you told No longer control My mind is free Free as can be My wings have been set free From your narcissistic greed No stone left unturned No promise left intact The truth is the wind beneath my wing

I wish I had never let go Letting go of me The me I used to be Before you closed me in Trapped inside myself Inside those layers of self doubt No control of me The me I could not see Until I finally broke free And found the me I used to be

Frozen solid Frozen still I shiver awake, breath as dense as the morning fog My skin with goosebumps from a night terror I can’t quite remember But remember I must I mustn’t forget This terror of fright This terror of fear Until finally, the chill stopped.

Open skies beckon in something broader. Moonlight awakens the night with a firework of fireflies and stars dancing about. But beyond this beautiful sight are ominous clouds dark as night. Waiting to shatter the skies with the rain as she cries.

Lost inside or out The feelings of doubt and despair are all about
Love is lost Love is found Grief is the deepest pit around