As I looked into your eyes,

I saw my future go up in flames.

No instant ignition

No fuel required

Just fire

Destruction

Silence

~Abandoned Butterfly...

You broke down walls I thought were guarded for life

You opened my mind beyond comprehension

You loved me wholeheartedly before I could even love myself

Best friend a name I don’t give away lightly

Lover you were gifted my mind body and soul

Cheerleader constant motivation and reason to move on

Therapist wisdom given and non judgmental conversations so deep they ended in tears of relief

Who i...

Even the dead tell stories

Deep from within

To learn and to cry

Understand and amend

Forthcoming and fruitful

Painfully sound

These are the stories we too shall be bound...

Bound by a promise

Awakened by despair

He looks all around

Lost without a care

His mind has gone blank

No longer knows his name

Lost in the fog

Alone in the deep

Bound by a promise he couldn’t keep...

Ten… The world seems so chaotic

Nine… Why is this happening to me

Eight… Maybe it’s all my fault

Seven… Maybe it’s no one’s fault at all

Six… It’s not me it’s him

Five… Then just let him go

Four… But I can’t I’m in love

Three… But does he show you that same love

Two… So what is that telling you

One… To Start over and be free

Free as can be…...

The lies you told

No longer control

My mind is free

Free as can be

My wings have been set free

From your narcissistic greed

No stone left unturned

No promise left intact

The truth is the wind beneath my wing...

I wish I had never let go

Letting go of me

The me I used to be

Before you closed me in

Trapped inside myself

Inside those layers of self doubt

No control of me

The me I could not see

Until I finally broke free

And found the me I used to be...

Frozen solid

Frozen still

I shiver awake, breath as dense as the morning fog

My skin with goosebumps from a night terror I can’t quite remember

But remember I must

I mustn’t forget

This terror of fright

This terror of fear

Until finally, the chill stopped....

Open skies beckon in something broader.

Moonlight awakens the night with a firework of fireflies and stars dancing about.

But beyond this beautiful sight are ominous clouds dark as night.

Waiting to shatter the skies with the rain as she cries....

Lost inside or out

The feelings of doubt and despair are all about

Love is lost

Love is found

Grief is the deepest pit around...