As the cool rain falls heavy on to my skin I lay here in the middle of the road wounding where it all went wrong. Was it me? Am I the problem? Was it when I wanted to hang out with my friends and he got jealous because he thought Emily had a crush on me? She couldn’t we’ve been friends since 3rd grade and she’s only dated boys. A car honked and a guy yelled at me, it shook me back into reality so I got up and sat back down on the side walk. “Stormy” Says a soft voice coming from behind me ,I turn around and see this blonde hair girt with a beautiful green dress on and I realize it’s Emily she comes and sits beside me. “Why are you sitting out here in the pouring rain alone” she says, i just sit there not responding because if I tell her I’m going to start crying. She takes her soft and gentle hands and wipes my face “I’m not sure if it’s tears or rain that I’m wiping off but either way you’re beautiful” I smile as I felt my face get red. “ So josh broke up with me because I wouldn’t stop being your friend, he thinks you have a crush on me” I finally say through my tears. She grabs my face smiles and tells me “that’s because I do, I’ve always had” my mind went blank and my stomach filled with butterflies. Without thinking I kissed her. I realized I had a crush on her all along from her beautiful dimples to her now soaking hair. She was always there for me when I needed someone the most. Emily grabbed my hand and started dancing in the middle of the road and I followed suit. Emily was always wild and did silly things. I guess that’s another reason I liked her
His dimples as cute as a button, his smile as perfect as can be reminds me of the time we met each other. His hair wild and free like The flowers that flow in the wind. His eyes blue as the ocean I look into them and I know I’m home and safe. His hands calloused and worn but still soft enough to hold a new born baby. His voice as deep as the ocean but still sweet as sugar. The way he gets so excited and carried away with building our future together makes my heart skip a few beats. He’s the love of my life what can I say
“Ding Ding Ding” the bell rang so I grabbed my things and went to the class I dreaded most. Everyday I walk to his class and it feels like pins and needles going through my chest as i get closer and closer finally reaching Mr.E. He looks at me and smirks as he knows my feelings towards him. I walk to my seat and I see a note addressed to me. I look up and see Mr. E looking at me with that same smirk he had when I walked in. I somehow knew what was already written but I rub my hand through my hair and read it anyway
“Hey jelly bean it’s been awhile I see you walking in the halls and in my room you try to look away every time I look at you. I miss you”
I stop reading as this rage fills me knowing he hurt me last time and he’s okay with it. I rip it in half and I rip both pieces again. My finger starts to bleed for a cut, my eyes get heavy and tears fills my eyes. I get up and run to the bathroom leaving the ripped up note. A million thoughts going through my head. ‘How can he expect me to just forget everything he said to me’. The feeling of pins and needles come back even harder now as i realize the anger I feel so heavy is love. I’m angry that I love him, I’m angry that I allowed myself to fall for my English teacher. How stupid can I possibly be?