I want to feel, I want to know I want to love, I want to grow

I want to sing, I want to win I want to cry, I want to sin

I want to dance, I want to walk But ever turn is a roadblock

I want to turn out of this maze But it all is such a haze

How did I get here? Where do I go?

I want to yell, I want to scream Please tell me this is but a dream

I cannot help to cry In times of joy In times of sorrow In times of pain

But mostly I cry from exhaustion When the day has been too much When the words just cut too deep I cant stop the tears from falling

The tears reminde me I’m alive

Turn off the phone, Shut off the light. Be with yourself if only for one night

Did I cross a line when I told you to stop? When the joke wasn’t funny, when I wasn’t the laugh? Did I cross a line when I wouldn’t comply? When I would tell you what you wanted to hear? Did I cross a line when I opened my mouth? Or was I simply sticking up for myself?

The line is long gone, I’m already here I will not be erased by your fear

What color is the wind? Why do lobsters mate for life? What makes the flowers bloom?

What makes bees able to fly? Who made the afternoon? How do the seasons know to change? Who called them “stars”? Of all the questions I wish to know And yet I’d still ask “Why aren’t you here”

Rain Falling Slowly now I stay in bed Sheets engulf my thoughts Pitter patter lulls me Back to sleep as I relax The rain has put my mind at ease My emails can wait another day My job today is to listen to rain

You tell me I’m only a woman, yet I feel there’s more I can do You tell me my dreams aren’t worth dreaming, yet stand as I fill up the room You tell me I’m not worth the patience, yet watch as I conquer my fears You tell me to keep my mouth shut, yet expect my listening ear You show me I’m less than my peers, but watch me soar in my career You try to break me, yet you only build me up You push me down, yet I get up stronger

Cold water feels warm when you’re freezing Sunset feels light when it’s dark How can my heart keep this beating When we are thousands of miles apart

Money feels right when you’re winning You made me feel right at home But why do I wish to be feeling Anything when I’m alone