“You’ve come back, but I no longer need you.” That’s what I wanted to say. In all actuality, I needed you more than ever. My whole childhood, It’s all over. You weren’t there. My brother. Gone.

If wishes fell like rain, then certainly I am a storm. I wish for summer, I wish for freedom, I wish for love, I wish for you. Storms bring me peace. because I know that god cries too. I know I’m not alone. I wish for things not capable. I wish for a new body, I wish for a lower voice, I wish for knowledge.

Silence is what I feel when I can’t see you. when I’m surrounded by so many, but you are nowhere to be found. but then, your eyes catch mine and my heart starts to flutter. it’s silly how fast my mood can change when you disappear. Silence is what I feel when no one is listening. I try to talk but when I get the chance my stomach starts to turn and I can’t. why would I anyway? why should I talk if nobody here cares about what I have to say. some days I hardly speak to anyone. drifting off into my mind and it’s calm. peaceful maybe. Silent is the feeling I get when nothing makes sense. I get frustrated and shut everyone out. back by myself. even if I didn’t would anyone even care to listen? I try to convince myself you would but I know that you can’t. you hardly ever notice me. sometime silence can be nice, I can sit by myself and I know I’m listening. i know I’m there, and I know I’m always going to be there when no one else is. Because why would they be. Why would you.