Some days I look to the Sun as a guide

Replicating her warmth and overpowering with light

Burning through the pieces that love me

Simply from holding them too tight...

The crisp white snow clenched tightly to the familiar paths I know home lush layers of green grass. I gaze at the Sky while inhaling the crisp air. The stars sparkle back at me with the brightest flames, almost as if reflecting off the blankets of white so peacefully below them. The moon flashes her silver smirk at me, like she's jealous of the attention I accidentally gave the snow. She dances ar...

Earthquakes no longer feel so foreign to my body

my core Shakes the remaining fear

And the foundation no longer feels stable

I clench my fist and grasp for more

But still the earth quake haunts me...

One day she stood up straighter

One day she stopped checking her tone

One day she believed in herself and the rest of the world followed

She gave herself the round of applause she so desperately needed

Then came the standing ovation

She planted her own flowers and watered her own garden

And the bouquets became overwhelming

She was her own inspiration and the creativity never stopped flowing

She lo...

One day You wake up and it all starts to come together

Tears cried and lies told

Fists thrown and biting tongues

It all brings You here

to who You are now

Every mistake and achievement it all brought You here

to awake in your beautiful light Z...

I pause momentarily while the phrase dances around my tongue. I'm allowed to want things, why is he so afraid to hear it all?

"What? Don't say what Steven?" I snap back at him. "You don't wanna hear what I need?'

"You said I wish, not I need. I can only imagine the non sense you're going to spew."

He says in his I couldn't care less about you voice.

"I wish you cared about what I needed to make th...

One day it was beautiful and all felt so real

But the next day it scared me and went down like a wide pill

I choked on my love for you and gave up my life

Consumed by your villains, the dream this once was turns darker and darker

Running and running to make this shit work

I fight, I yell, I beg to make it work

Then suddenly... It's over...

I wish I had never let go

Free-falling into depths l'D never wandered

Entangled in lies and webs of empty promises,

I wonder if that freedom is worth the fall

Troubled hands reach out begging forforgiveness

But it's too late

We already let go...

I count the days and clock the hours

1,2 we're almost there

barely even able to stop and smell the flowers

It all flies right past me as I'm waiting and waiting

3,4,5, why’d you stop counting?

I think it's all gone

You, her and me

I think I've lost count, what day is it now?

I trace back the days and retract the hours

Still more waiting

Time had never passed so slowly...

Enough is enough, but what is that really?

I do myself up, spin myself around

But still that's not enough.

You need more of me

But when is enough, enough?...